老板娘!~我要香槟一瓶!OH~我的中文不好,so the rest i will just use English.(MOMO REN:Excuse Me~I got hear wrongly or not?) Oh!COME ON~Remember? I'm ABC actually. Anyway, I wanna kai xiang bing to celebrate that I actually manage to change the blog skin myself. Steady or not? Got animals moving around de lei..Haha..I think the creator of the skin quite free, because if you place your mouse on the skin and you right click, you will see "Adobe flash" written below. That means it's make using Adobe Flash, which I think time spend should be quite long. Thanks Creator! For your affect, great job~ Now I know, actually changing blog skin not that hard, just that it's too ma fan, and too many words. But still I will need the help from Li Kuan to help me edit something. The "LINKs" to friends' blog. I really don't know how, put the links liao, but still can't work. Okay~Back to the real topic, recently life not good. Seriously. I disobey God in many ways, like skipping school, not doing assignments, not reading God's words, not praying to God. Feel like giving up everything. Sometimes even think that maybe die is a good solution. No worry, I never want to commit suicide. Ha. I don't have the courage too. And I clearly know that putting ownself to death is never a solution to problems. My brain is telling me that Satan is attacking me, he's pulling my OLD self back again. My outer heart hack care. My feeling tells me that my life is rotting. My inner heart hates the feeling and want to change. Human is just amazing. A simple piece of Human, yet complicated. Physically, mentally, spiritually. Haiz...I know I should give thanks not give up. Recently, I started to buy newspaper. A bad thing about nowadays youngsters are that we are too into our own world (cyber world, video world, fantasy world etc.) and not knowing what really happens around us. When I read the newspaper I started to really appreciate what I have now. Because I'm just too lucky to know God, to know the people that I've know now, to have parents, still having chance to study and money to survive. And I've read this news, it's a headline recently.
15岁乞童坠楼案

This news captured my eyes, I'm just very curious why a teenager like him,who may have a bright future, ended up decided to commit suicide. Where he got his courage from? Is it really that painful that death seems so tempting to him? Then I started to read. It stated that he's a 15 years old guy who looks like 12 years old boy, maybe because he's too poor to eat more, therefore, lack of nutrition. He lives in a one room flat and he will always go to the coffee shop near his block to beg for money. People there will feel bad for him, so will always treat him lunch or dinner. People there too, said that he's a good kid who will not disturb customers there, except if the customers talk to him. And he will ask money from strangers to buy food for his mother. He grows in a single parent family, his dad left his mother and him when he's very young, if not wrong, 3 years old. He stop schooling, don't know whether is it he can't afford to. And the newspaper stated that he don't even have friends and he don't have siblings. Immediately I felt lonely for him. Imagining that he's walking around the estate playing with himself. Feeling sad for him, started to blame God of the unfairness on this kid. Because I also live in one room flat, I don't know, I just feel different for this case. Started to think that what if he's like me, meeting a group of good people and knowing God, helping him through, financially, spiritually. I wonder how will he be like in the next five years. And I think he looks quite handsome, he looks like a korean artist, Hong Ki. Even more pity. Last week, same as usual, an uncle treated him dinner, but he don't have appetite and the uncle said he looked quite sad. Then, he asked 2 bucks from the uncle to buy dinner for his mum. Suddenly, got 2 policemen went forward to him to warn him not to go home so late. Then he walked home. The policemen afraid that he will have danger, even followed him home. But who knows when the policemen saw him went up to his block, a while later, he jumped down from the block. And Sebestian's(his name) life ended. Last night, I read the news again. He's being 火葬, but you know what? None of his family members, not even his mum, went to claim his 骨灰. Isn't it pathetic? Although I don't know him, but I felt so sad. Haiz...I should really give thanks for what i have now. At least I know when I die, there will be people organizing funeral for me. Haha.
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