I'm suppose to sleep now de. But i wanna full charged my mp3, so i need to on my laptop lo. By the way, can i ask u all a question? What do family mean to you all? Is it a place where you can "rest in peace"? I mean when you are tired of the world and wanna find a place to really hide and rest. Or a place where you can find warmness and love? Or maybe a sense of irritation? Well...most of time, 3rd option will be my feeling. Irritation/烦. Sometimes, i'll grumble in my heart that why God gives me a mother who has mental illness (will throw dad's and my stuffs without asking us), that really freak me out. I'm a person who don't like 脏话, however, when she threw my important stuffs away without even asking my permission, i super feel like giving her the 4 letter words. Haiz...I can't love her. The exact words to use are don't want. I did try to treat her better, but i can't forgo the past. Somethings are stucking at the bottom of my heart. She really irritates me.烦. I thank God i did not dislike my dad, at least i've got a person to talk to at home. I think he's a nice dad, but think too highly of himself liao, nag too much also, and most of the times, he likes to complain about other people, which i think most of it are craps. He has the 功力to make me very 烦each day. But i still thank him for feeding me. And why can't my parents be normal parents whom i can share my feelings and thoughts to? Am i requesting too much? I think so. Sorry~ I think i really grumble too much.
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